Espousal

For he who has become your husband is
your Maker;
his name is the LORD of hosts;
Your redeemer is the Holy One of Israel,
called God of all the earth.


Though the mountains leave their place
and the hills be shaken,
My love shall never leave you
nor my covenant of peace be shaken,
says the LORD, who has mercy on you.
Isaiah 54:5, 10

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Me and God

I’m still in the desert and I am surprised by how much I like it because I thought it would be terrible: lost, thirsting, miserable. Instead I’m wrapped up in God.

I have been pulled away from my friends a bit, fewer “chance” encounters with people on campus, just seeing people when exactly necessary for comfort or to pass along a word of notice. I even avoid my MP3 a bit more, looking for the silence; but I’m not hiding in the chapel on campus. Instead I am sitting on park benches re-reading Hosea chapter 2 or browsing through the psalms.

God’s teaching me, speaking to my heart often times without my realizing it. I’ve noticed that God is teaching me some things, speaking to me because I’m more accepting of some ideas that I would have balked at just days ago. He is showing me how I can be more than just His servant.

This time alone with God … if I can be forward, I’ll characterise as courtship? wooing? I only answer in the affirmative.

I like this “alone” time so much that I don’t want to tell anyone anymore. I like it being just God and me.

We’re a team
Me and God

— Josh Turner, Me and God

Murphy’s Law

Since she has not known
that it was I who gave her
the grain, the wine, and the oil,
And her abundance of silver,
and of gold, which they used for Baal,
Therefore I will take back my grain in its
time
and my wine in its season;
I will snatch away my wool and my flax,
with which she covers her nakedness.
So now I will lay bare her shame
before the eyes of her lovers,
and no one can deliver her out of myhand.
I will bring an end to all her joy,
her feasts, her new moons, her sabbaths,and all her solemnities.
I will lay waste her vines and fig trees,
of which she said, “There are the hire
my lovers have given me”;
I will turn them into rank growth
and wild beasts shall devour them.
I will punish her for the days of the Baals,
for whom she burnt incense
While she decked herself out with her rings
and her jewels,
and, in going after her lovers,
forgot me, says the LORD.
Therefore, I will hedge her in her way with thorns
and erect a wall against her,
so that she cannot find her paths.
If she runs after her lovers, she hall not
overtake them;
if she looks for them she shall not find them.
Then she shall say, “I will go back t my first husband,
for it was better with me then than now.”
So I will allure her;
I will lead her into the desert
and speak to her heart.
From there I will give her the vineyards she
had,
and the valley of Achor as a door of hope.
She shall respond there as in the days of her
youth,
when she came up from the land of Egypt.
On that day, says the LORD,
she shall call me “My husband,”
and never gain “My Baal.”
Then will I remove from her mouth the
names of the Baals,
so that they shall no longer be invoked.
I will make a covenant for them on that day,
with the beasts of the field,
with the birds of the air,
and with the things that crawl on theground.
Bow and sword and war
I will destroy from the land,
and I will let them take their rest in
security.
I will espouse you to me forever:
I will espouse you in right and in justice,
in love and in mercy;
I will espouse you in fidelity,
and you shall know the LORD.
On that day I will respond, says the LORD;
I will respond to the heavens,
and they shall respond to the earth;
the earth shall respond to the grain, and wine, and oil,
and these shall respond to Jezreel.I
will sow him for myself in the land,
and I will have pity on Lo-ruhama.
I will say to Lo-ammi,
“You are my
people,”
and he shall say, “My God!”
Hosea 2:4-25

I love it when I feel the Spirit. Do you not know that your body is a temple of the holy Spirit within you, whom you have from God, and that you are not your own? 1 Corinthians 6:19 We closed the discernment meeting last night with prayer, after we’d talked about different ways to pray for 90 minutes. It was comtemplative, not unlike Sacred Space, and in one part of it we’re “supposed” to concentrate on God’s prescence within us. It’s moments like those where I seem to give something of mine over to God. The mental imagery was great, and I like being so child-like with God. I also like how my simple act & prayer was just perfect for God.

VA Chapter 2 Reflection

Chapter 2

Reflect on Baptismal Call: How could I not give my life over to Christ when He has been so understanding, forgivig, and steadfast? So much grace and forgiveness, how else can I offer thanks and sacrifice?

Call from the community: Different people state that I look like a sister, or that I should seriously study theology. Others have suggested the field of Christian counseling as a career. Majority of people aren’t aware that I sense this calling.

Called for the community: Always knew that I was to be of service to others, in a hierarchical institution; no private practice for me. Status and prestige are not mine to have; I do not seek it and it’s not my right to claim. It belongs to God. I’ve been focused on studies and classes that enable me to help others in any possible way.

Prophetic: Speak up in internet forums, defend the faith to non-Catholics (ie, don’t worship Mary). Write letters to school paper about the prescence of cults on campus (USC) and to religious websites, and support groups.

Eschatological: I don’t car for very many material possession, and would actually be content with less: clutter, visual noise, and messy. Want, not a sense of having to, go to Mass every Sunday. Keep a sin journal — all the better for confessions — and also to track habitual sins so I can make goon on my goals of improvement.

Sacraments: Try to attend Mass every Sunday, or on a Saturday evening however family plans do tend to make attendance difficult. Have not yet worked out a way to go daily with my class schedule. Daily prayer and conversation with God: rosary, chapel, read scripture, and/or devotions.

Promoting the Kingdom: Love my friendships and conversations with people of other faiths and backgrounds: Catholic, nondenominationals, Jewish, Buddhist, etc. I cannot say that I see the Catholic Church is the only way to God. Christ is the way, not the Roman Catholic Church; Christ is not a denomination. Doctrine does play a critical role.

Social circle: Saved and unsaved friends; Catholic and non-Catholic Christians, Jews, agnostics, and atheists.

Service: Tutor at the high school level for foster care students, and former residents at juvenile hall, and homeless ministry.

Need to work on: family life, support network, more prayer life.

Bryant, Kathleen. (1996) Vocations Anonymous: A handbook for adults discerning preisthood and religious life. National Coalition for Church Vocations: Illinois