Since September as you all know, life has taken a very interesting turn for me. In that time I have had to reorient myself to an entirely different way of thinking. I have had to go from the idea I be in a convent by now and wearing a religious habit and waking up at 5 a.m. everyday and praying for 2-3 hours before going to work.
To having to consider that this is the rest of my life: I make breakfast for myself, I go to work; I’m lucky if I can make it to daily Mass. I come home and I’m alone and maybe I get around to offering a Rosary, maybe I find time to destress enough to read my Bible or just some spiritual reading. In the middle of all this I’m supposed to be interviewing and studying for my licensing exam.
In doing interviews I have found the greatest struggle is justifying why I have over 4,200 hours of supervised experience and why I have not taken my licensing exam. And I went on an interview 2 weeks ago at an agency that I really like the idea of working for. It is a partial clinic and partial field time and it sounds awesome and fantastic. It would pay me what I am worth as a person and it is very intriguing work to me in that I continue in what I’m doing but it also has the appropriate levels of challenge. I get to retain my knowledge of social resources within SPA 8, too. And then I did myself a disservice in the middle of the interview.
I said I was a lazy person for not having completed my hours.
No! I have to clarify this in some way that is professional appropriate and I think I’ve lost my opportunity for a really good job. And its really sad and scary. That we live in a society where I can not be honest about who I am and I want to set that straight here on the internet for all to see.
I have 4,200 hours of experience because I was trying to enter the convent and become debt-free. That takes diligence and sacrifice; it’s not a mark of laziness.
Propriety states we do not discuss religion race politics or sexuality in an interview. So how do we do this? How do I sit there in my next interview and say I wish I could say I was lazy and that’s why I have so much experience and not a license to show for it? Rather than finding a way to say “Hey, I’m not even just a spiritual person. I’m a true believer. I’m such a true believer, I was going to lay down my life for Christ in a convent and take vows of chasity, poverty and obedience; and I have been pursuing this dream since I was 16 and I’m now 31.” And somehow how does this not become a burn against me; how does it not become a mark, a scar? Am I such a fool?