An update

I just had a post disappear. That’s something new for me here on Blogspot, although I’ve had it occur at Xanga.

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Psychology was on my mind a lot yesterday. I keep interviewing with psychology oriented field recruiters: LCSWs. PhD, MFTs, etc. I can’t help but feel that they are psyching me out, and all the while I’m trying to psych them out. Make sense? That’s more along the lines of funny and awkward, whereas, each encounter always wants to know if I’ve ever had to handle a crisis situation, and the only one that I was proactive with was Rachel/Hershey.

Thinking about Rachel invariably brings back the months after I left the Local Church. Rachel’s situation was entangled with mine, with me being the main contact point and friend for Rachel, and later she became my pathway into more negativity than I had cause to lead myself into. For as messed up as the two of us were together, we helped each other as well. I can only see Rachel as the only “crisis” I’ve ever had to handle, because I certainly did not handle myself. Some of you here on Xanga, certainly did so for me. I’m probably your “crisis”? Albeit, it was over the internet and those who remember were at least a couple 1,000 miles away.

Therefore I’ve been too introspective the last few days, in such a way that yesterday when I had spanish class I had trouble switching gears, and everything was a giggle fest. A girl/woman I like talking to in the class, Debra, told me my face had flushed as well. The spanish reflexives were giving me trouble, and I was thinking all the while how I would write my brief personal history and self description for the job application to the internship I interviewed for on Tuesday.

The internship is with a group called Outreach Concern, Inc., which puts interns like myself into an elementary or high school setting where I would see kids during an 8:30 am to 2:30 pm school day and counsel them. Then I would have a support team of other interns was well as an on-site supervisor and a weekly meeting with a clinician to make sure I’m not doing anything drastically wrong. I have agreed to do one day per week (Fridays) at a hopefully Catholic school in Long Beach near Cal State Dominguez Hills. The field recruiter asked if I had any problems working at a Catholic school (my medals of St Benedict & the Blessed Virgin were hidden beneath my blouse for the sake of Equal Opportunity Employment) and I said no. He said that the Sister (he said Nun, but we know that’s the wrong term!) was “very proper and set in her ways. I smiled and said that would not be a problem at all. Personally I wonder what order she is, and if I’ve met her at the Vocation retreat in late January, or if I’ve sent her community a vocation letter yet. LOL Outreach is non-profit, and the reason they are available at Catholic schools is because they were recently taken under the wing of Cardinal Mahoney’s Catholic Charities. (Why do I keep interviewing with people under the Mahoney’s pet projects??) Nonetheless, I am looking forward to working with Outreach.

I’m going to post the personal history blurb I’ve written in Protected, and maybe some of you can give me pointers/proofread? I’ve tried to think of how to say that I’ve never be in material need, but I have struggled with my own issues and conflicts, to perhaps show that I can relate to the kids I’ll be counseling. I also have to have a self-description which I’ll put in the same Protected post.

JoAnn’s is going nowhere. At Old Navy, I was trained to do everything, and at JoAnn’s that translates to job responsibilities that are at the managerial level (ie, returns, exchanges, crediting credit cards, etc). Yet, I’m relinquished to the level of the baby, and cannot do returns. Excuse my momentary frustration, at being realy cheap hire for them. I’m a college graduate and I don’t get paid more than 8 bucks an hour, gotta be kidding me! They haven’t had me work since Sunday. I’m available for immediate hire, and they hired me, but they won’t put me to work. I thought people get hired because the company needs someone to be working for them soon, to fill a void. Yet, I don’t have a single day scheduled?!? Tell me, please, am I off-base here?

In the meantime, I am still looking for other jobs and also need to find time to get fingerprinted, again, for Outreach. The Attorney General’s office, like any other bureaucratic system is too tangled for me to just request a transfer form to send the fingerprint scan results from Didi Hirsch over to Outreach Concern. Grr. It is just much easier to avoid the bureaucracy and just get fingerprinted all over again. LiveScan is kinda cool, though.

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Box.net has been updated, so you can see all the things I’ve written, although they are just undergraduate research papers. Some are on assigned topics, others were chosen by me.