Can be attricious.
The situation: My roomate made plans beginning of May to move out and did so this past Sunday. I’m swinging rent in excess of $1500 by myself for August. I’ve found a place to share with coworker for total $1265. That’s a savings of $150/month for me.
My dad offered financial assistance last week. I held off & he retracted it Sunday morning. Then he had buyers remorse, and called me today. He wants me to stay at current place, which I csnnot afford with my student debt & car loans. I can’t afford to eat at this point.
His thought is that I submitted paperwork to Sallie Mae to adjust my loans & is counting my chickens before they hatch. Yet SM hasn’t responded yet.
If you withdraw support, don’t you think the horse will stop pulling the cart, and kick you? Especially when you tease the horse?
I realize this is missing on this site, and I’ve been putting it off until I siphon posts from Blogger (2 sites) & Xanga (purportedly shutting down) to explain who I am, and what exactly is habit forming.
In September of 2006 I began discernment. What does that mean, you ask. “Discern” means to discover or to seek out, and “ment” adds on the meaning of entering into an active seeking out of something. More correctly in the way that “discernment” is used is the seeking out of the vocation God gives to each of us at conception & fills us with graces to fulfill at baptism, and we grow in holiness as we age. In short, I have a vocational calling to be a “woman religious” the progressive sisters in polyester pant-suits would call it; God is calling me to enter religious life as either a nun or a sister.
That is why this site is called “Habit Forming”: I’m walking a narrow path that will eventually allow me to wear all the days of my life a religious habit and slowly be formed in the Potter’s hands.
Does it usually take 7 years to figure out what/where God is calling someone? No, but it takes a few years to pay off $50,000 of student debt from graduate school. I recently used my tax refund check to pay off an entire loan. In other words, I paid off $20,000 in 1.5 years. I would pay it off faster if I could, but I’m a social worker: I don’t make a lot of money. Which leads me to another point, I wanted to merge all my posts here from Blogger & Xanga to show the progression of my discernment, as I will eventually need a platform to seek donations. This blog, hopefully, will be that platform.
God Bless & Mary Keep
When was I last on here? Can somone check the time stamp for me?
- Got a job as a social worker at a ADHC November 2010
- Left the job 3weeks prior to being there a year. October 2011
- Got a job as a social worker/therapist November 2011
- Moved out of my parents’ place 2 months ago
Where’s the vocation?
Still here, going through the desert.
Paying off my loans, which have gone down from 50k to 42k. Hey, I don’t make a million as a social worker. They don’t pay me very well to make sure kids don’t kill or hurt themselves; to help them out of depression or anxiety; or to teach parents to, well, parent; connect kids and parents to community resources.
I actually now have the means with the Laboure Society to start collecting donations toward my student loans.
If you would like to donate, and it’s (a) tax-deductible, and (b) anonymous; please e-mail me at: firstname.lastname@example.org
I’ve been listed and started to work with the Laboure Society to pay off my student loans. But hold your horses – not everything is fully set up just yet.